Week Gone Bad (Paying homage to a Crossfit WOD named “Fight Gone Bad)

I wish I knew where the week went wrong. Actually, I know. I am training my replacement and this person does not want my job but the decision has been made. Typically, I enjoy training/teaching people. I have never had to train a person that does not want to learn. This fact makes it very difficult.

 

Several systems in my “old” office have required updates due this week. Typically, I arrive at work early so I can upload the changes so the new information is available to the controllers as early as possible (This is not required on my part I simply do it). My replacement does not share the same urgency as I do which is very frustrating. I enjoy goofing off as much as the next person. However, when something needs to “get” done I do the work and then I goof off again if possible.

 

My replacement has a tendency to be grumpy, frustrated and at times angry at his situation. FYI – he has ample reason to feel this way. I never realized how difficult it is to be around a person that is in a bad mood a lot of the time.

 

I know I have a tendency to be “this type of person.” The last two weeks have lead me to turn inward and reflect on how my attitude and behavior affects other people. I did not want to change jobs and move to a new office. This fact and training a grumpy person has turned me into the same the last couple of weeks.

 

I was told prior to the job change that I will be expected to continue to serve as a lifeline for my replacement and do his job when he can’t meet the demands. This leads me to believe that not only will I have to learn a new job and inherit those responsibilities but I will continue to be responsible for my old job (Note: In my old job when something needed to be changed the need was immediate because it is a safety issue.)

 

Finally, I started Crossfitting at Crossfit AMRAP on 15 January 2011. The month of March and April have been exasperating. I became infected with bronchitis which forced me to miss a 10 days of WODs (workout of the day). Finally, I make it back to the Box (what Crossfitters call the gym) and POOF!!! This week happens. Ironically, Last Saturday, I decided to make it a goal of going to the Box every day this week. It is Thursday and I haven’t been once. It seems like I have joined the Box something comes up each week that prevents me from making it to the Box so I can complete the WOD

 

These facts I have led to the week going wrong or bad. I hope I can go back to the Box Friday morning to exercise the wrong out of me. Due to my work schedule this week I have not gone to the Box Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday. I did not go to the Box this morning (Thursday) because if I went the Box then I would have had only 3 – 4 hours of sleep and for personal health reasons that is not acceptable.

 

So, I am upset for all the above reasons. Plus, I am struggling with the negative voice inside my head. I worry about what Matt and Brittany (Crossfit AMRAP owners) and that I have let them down or disappointed them. I know, these facts are silly but they are still the facts. I wish I could defeat the negative self-talk once and for all. I do defeat it but he always comes back. I wish I could stomp his head hard enough that he would stay dead.

 

The good news. Based on what my wife says I am not bringing my work home or allowing it to affect my mood with my family. In a strange twist, observing a grumpy, mad, frustrated person has lead me to strive to not be “that” person.

 

Still another reason to get back to the Box. Crossfitters are typically in a good mood. Yes, we complain about the WOD but it is in fun. I want to become the type of person I read about at www.sicfit.com, www.crossfit.com. I see at the Box and at my church.

 

I understand these people have doubts, negative thoughts, and bad weeks/months. I want to handle these situation with the grace and love that I observe from afar.

 

I think that I am making progress for a couple of reasons.

 

1. based on what my wife has shared with me and not shared with me. I have made it a practice to ask if I have done anything when I notice she is “off.”

2. I have not allowed my frustrations, fears and self-flagellation to continue unabated. Nor have I expressed these emotions and actions by demeaning others around me.

 

So, I guess a week of missed WODs can be a positive and lead to self-improvement. However, I really need to get my backside kicked at the Box tomorrow morning.

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Paleo Day #3

I am starting to experience a dull throbbing headache located on the right side. It is not bad just there. I woke up at 4am this morning with a horrible headache. It prevented me from going back to sleep.

So far, I have not had too many cravings. My wife baked some homemade chocolate chips cookies on her pizza stone. She bakes 1 large cookie. They are wonderful. I had to leave the kitchen so I wouldn’t succumb to the craving.

I have started photo logging my meals with Posterous.

My Crossfit foundations class started on 10 Jan 2011 at Crossfit AMRAP in Crystal Lake, IL. The foundation classes are at night. We do a short warm-up, practice new lifts and then the WOD (workout of the day). The classes and overall atmosphere has been wonderful. The experienced Crossfitters have been very welcoming and have not made me feel uncomfortable and like I do not belong. Everyone cheers each other on which is great motivation.

I broke my left collarbone a few years ago. The doctors were unable to set my collarbone due to broken neck. My left shoulder is weak and my range of motion is restricted as well due to the injuries. This is my major frustration but it will improve.

I was very sore Sunday due to doing a WOD Friday evening and then completing 2 WODs less than 12 hours later, Saturday morning. I paid for it.

I have 2 more Foundation classes then I start the Crossfit WODs endured by everyone else that is a member. In addition to the normal Crossfit WODs I will complete the Crossfit Endurance WODs 3 – 4 times a week starting 24 Jan 2011.

 

TB

My Paleo Lunch

I’m taking part in a Paleo Challenge at @CrossfitAMRAP. I am more diligent when I record what I eat.

Today – Meatloaf & Blueberries & Blackberries.

My afternoon snack

1/2 cup asparagus